I never imagined that my journey of becoming a more conscious and whole person could become enriched by my experience of living with AS. In fact I rarely experience any pain these days and when I do, I welcome it as another opportunity for my inner practice of sensing the energy, its temporary stuckness, practising to sense into it and gently liberate its flow.
Instead of reacting to and fighting against symptoms and pain which increases suffering and builds more pressure I am learning what happens when instead I become more curious and accepting of the energy that wants to move through me but gets blocked at any particular moment in time, causing congestion and pain.
What I noticed is that instead of wanting to get rid of it, I become more available for what is present, wants to be in flow but cant and probably is outside of my rational understanding. Accepting that something that is not separated from me is trying to get my attention and benefits from being included and processed with awareness and love, opens up new channels that connect me to more of myself and life itself.
I noticed in myself and in people I work with, how feelings of fear, anger, shame and guilt create an inner separation and resistance. To keep resisting and fighting requires a lot of energy and inner resources which can be depleting. On the other hand, feelings of appreciation, acceptance, relatedness, curiosity and compassion for whatever is happening, creates an inner opening and leads to new connections and new pathways. It enables us humans to feel part of something much larger than our small limited selves.
In the context of my work with people suffering from emotional, mental and physical health problems this awareness also helps me to remain grounded in myself, aligned with how other people are feeling but not getting taken over by their energies. It allows me to let their energy move through me, remain sensitive and compassionate but not become absorbed by it.
When the symptom isn’t the enemy I need to fight and resist but the messenger, I ask myself what is it that I can learn as part of the healing process? Instead of shooting the messenger, how can I take the pain or trauma and turn it into something positive?
This also informs my larger questions: How can we transmute lower energy into higher energy? What is this other side that is present and gives me more and better options to act?
Awareness of the interconnections that are operating at every moment in and between living organisms helps me to dissolve my sense of separateness or 'othering'. We are nature.
Each one of us, no matter what we do, whether we cause more separation or create more conscious inter-connectedness, we are doing the work of the whole as an integral part of our ecosystem.
Without having healthy ecosystems we cant be healthy and we cant have healthy eco-systems without having healthy humans. This awareness calls for exercising a greater response-ability than other living organisms like plants and animals.
The ability to respond translates into having more choice of how we interact with the life energy as it moves through us. We can either act as conscious humans acknowledging the sacredness of life and align our behavior or ignore and deny our interconnections, live as if we were separate and create suffering and pain.
Once we understand that suffering is part of the greater healing process that can take us out of our separate self-awareness, what is the wise action we can take? What is sustainable holistic living? How is the human organism meant to live on this planet in a more harmonious way?
What I personally can do in my life and work is help others become aware of our deep interconnectedness with nature and share practices that enable us to feel our life energy and liberate its flow. Stagnation in any context, whether biological, social, psychological or spiritual will naturally lead to discomfort and pain. Healing in all those contexts can happen once we become aware of discomfort and stagnation by sensing into the subtle energies at play and enabling their flow.
With the growing epidemic of chronic diseases, the reduced funding of health services and the lack of successful medical treatments there is gradually more openness to holistic ways of healing. I facilitate Brainhealth workshops in this primary care practice where doctors and nurses work in partnership with therapists offering natural therapies.
Also the Apple Tree programme for the active prevention of dementia through lifestyle, behaviour change and technology is acknowledging the connection between all aspects of a persons' life.
I am noticing a surge of awakening to the interconnectedness of living processes from individuals practising interpersonal mindfulness, employees expressing their creativity at work and feeling more fulfilled, managers enabling collaborative learning to members of the Climate Change movement calling for System Change to address the causes of separation and alienation.
While this awakening is happening there is also a surge of fear, violence and separation in the world which gives rise to racism and nationalism of which Brexit is just one example.
Ecological Intelligence means developing new sensitivities to the interrelatedness of phenomena including unfamiliar ones beyond what our nervous system has learned to pick up and learning what to do about it.
As more and more people try to understand what on Earth is really happening it makes it easier for more of us to open up and align our intentions with this emerging consciousness of interconnectedness.
If you feel called to discover, develop and refine your perceptions of interrelatedness, do get in touch.
On 20-21st July we are hosting a friend from China who developed powerful meditative practices inspired by Taoism, Confucianism and Anthroposophy to enable healing.
Find details of this event and how to book here.
What can we do as individuals to move from the story of separation to the story of interbeing?